All things work together for the good...

Today has been one of those days. I mean, seriously. A lot of road blocks which, a year ago, or even a few months ago, would have thrown me into what is probably a panic attack... extreme stress, bad mood, complaining, grumbling about how much life stinks, feeling completely hopeless and that my life was literally falling apart into little pieces...

BUT today wasn't like that! I have been trying, through the strength of God, to remain calm and not have too much anxiety or fear when something doesn't go right with coordinating all Gabe's care.

First, our wonderful nurse Diane had to leave our house early for a doctor's appointment and Shaun was in Virginia at a meeting. I was a little anxious about watching all 3 of the kids right around lunch and nap time, knowing that a lot could go wrong, but I just had to trust and remember that I'm not the one in control anyways (learned that lesson about 2 years ago when Gabe went in the hospital but for some reason keep being reminded of it daily). Well, the day went off without a hitch and Shaun was home from the meeting much earlier than I expected.

Then, Gabe's Pediasure. We called it in to the pharmacy a week ago and was told it was being ordered. When Diane phoned today to see if it was ready to be picked up, lo and behold, it wasn't even ordered because they were waiting on the doctor to write a script for a refill and hadn't heard back from the doctor. Wouldn't it have been nice if someone told us that, especially when Gabe only has 5 cans left?? I'm *starting* to go into panic mode, but there is the Lord, quietly reminding me that it's okay and I just need to rest and trust in Him. Why am I so inherently quick to panic and fear? And to doubt that He is near and involved even in the smallest of matters? He works ALL things together for the good of those who love Him. He worked out the Pediasure problem. But, there were more problems...

Last Saturday I went by CVS to pick up Gabe's Sildenafil (which is actually Viagra, which Gabe takes to help his heart with pulmonary hypertension). They couldn't get insurance to authorize it but I thought it was because I was filling it too early because someone at the pharmacy randomly wrote 'Discard after 28 days' which has never been written on this medication before. So, I figured I'd wait to pick it up after I could talk to Michelle, Gabe's coordinator, who is awesome and can solve any problem we have. But this week has been crazy and I only briefly mentioned it to Michelle, but she seemed to agree that it was probably just that I had tried to fill it too early. Sooo, when I called CVS this snow-cold afternoon, they still couldn't get it to go through and told me to call the number on the back of Gabe's insurance card. Ugh. I absolutely abhor dealing with insurance companies and wasn't about to do that. Didn't know if Gabe could make it all weekend on the amount of Sildenafil that we have, but I figured I'd measure out all the doses he'd need tosee if we had enough (all the while praying that the medication would go FAR). Again, God is so good. We have enough for the weekend and will hopefully get the issue resolved on Monday.

I'm hoping that there won't be any more issues that pop up over the weekend. But even if there are, I am hoping even more that I will remember that all things work together for the good and that I can trust the one who holds everything in his hands.